Writing again...

December 2017 was my last post, til today... i sit down outside the balcony, raining..., and just randomly open my blog. Today, i have nothing on my mind... My work are done, Silver's school stuff are also done, and the house is almost clean after few days non stop cleaning every single corner. I haven't write any about Silver school haven't i?  Last post was about Mother's Day, and after that i'm extremely busy doing the daily routines and Silver's activities at school.

This year almost end... I couldn't say this year is my year..., it's Silver's. My work wasn't goes as smooth as i expected. I work so hard and keep everything run well with Silver's activities at school. I learn a lot, learn about how life's change so much in a year. I learn to let go, i learn to be stronger than ever, i learn to keep everything balance. I sometime gave up, i wanted to write here, share lots of photos, but.. honestly, i most time couldn't find not just the right time, but the right mood to write a new post.

I fight my mind a lot, keep my head straight, bring my heart stable, and i realized... the busiest time of my life is when i become a mother. I do enjoy. I'm super happy become his mother. But i also need to separate my mind, even my body parts. All my creative mind feels numb, i just haven't found the right ingredients to keep everything run as great as i did before.

Til i tidy everything up, one by one..., i keep my energy alive... For Silver, for the place i live, for all my passion. Where else i can get my energy back from? Just from what i already have, and here i am today..., writing again, start everything from zero.

Silver just finished his mid term assessment last week. He will have his grand assembly performance this week before his long year end holiday. I still can believe it... He grow so fast, too fast... He talk to me like a grown up, no more baby..., and yes i am so proud to be his mother.

I want to write again, here... I hope i'll see you again soon :)
Here are Silver's photos on his 2nd day at school, July 2018.

Selamat Hari Ibuk.

Hari ini, tidak banyak berharap apapun dari suamiku. Selain dia pribadi yang cukup cuek untuk hal-hal detail, akupun sudah agak lelah untuk mengingatkannya bahwa aku suka kejutan dan semua hal 'intimate' lainnya. Kita bersama sudah hampir 13 tahun, gak ditiap hari ulang tahunku aku dapat hadiah. Apalagi untuk anniversary dan hari ibu, kayaknya nanti bisa patah hati kalo aku terlalu banyak berharap. Sampai-sampai, aku punya planning untuk merayakan ulang tahunku tahun depan ini untuk menginap di hotel bersama sahabatku dan anak-anaknya :). Karena aku sudah mulai bisa pasrah, kalau memang suamiku gak akan jadi seperti yang sering aku utarakan padanya. Kayaknya juga aku terlalu maksa dan egois, kalau terus-menerus menyindirnya hihihihihi..., jadi... aku sudah bertekat untuk 'biasa aja', jika memang dia juga biasa aja. Toh kita akan hidup bersama selamanya :)

Hari ini, ketika bangun dan Silver seperti biasa masih tertidur lelap, ada ucapan Selamat Hari Ibu di televisi yang menyala. Seketika itu juga suami menengok dan ucapkan selamat hari ibu, dan di sun. Cukup lah ya :)

Haripun berlalu seperti biasa... Di sosial media penuh dengan suami-suami sayang istri yang memposting foto istri mereka dan menulis betapa bangganya mereka akan istri mereka. Oh well..., biasanya nanti kalau suami udah liat banyak lewat sosial media, ada kemungkinan 50:50 untuk dia at least memposting fotoku juga hihihihihi..

Lalu sekitar jam makan siang, Silver minta makan bakmi, dan mereka pergi berdua untuk beli bakmi dan aku nitip segelas ice coffee latte dong. Waktu berlalu 1.5jam, aduh kok lama banget yaaaa, perut udah laparrrr, dan sengaja gak masak karena memang mau beli.

Terdengar suara mobil masuk garasi, yeayyyy makanan datanggggg..., aku segera turun tangga dan panggil "Silver... Silver...", kelihatan mereka menyembunyikan sesuatu dan berbisik. Silver lari ke arahku, "Ibuukkkk, Happy Mother's Day Ibuk...", sambil menyodorkan sebuah kotak cake. Ya ampunnn, gak nyangka banget deh :), senengnya gak bisa ditulis dengan kata-kata, soalnya ini 'rare moment' banget hahahahaahha...

Kata Abah, Silver udah latihan dijalan berkali-kali untuk bilang Happy Mother's Day, dia pelesetin jadi Happy Dead Day seperti judul film yang dia pernah lihat. Hahahahaha, lucunya ini dua makhluk sok-sok'an mau kasih hadiah buat Ibu. Pas dibuka ada chocolate cake dan red velvet cake, trus ada card nya juga :). Pasti Abah googling dulu nih heheheehhe...

Thank you my husband and my son, this made my day :D

I love you both!

P.S:

I do like surprises :), please do more hahahahaha :*

Love,

Ibuk

All photo by me, around the #silverswood

From 8 to 11am.

 

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