Pains De Corps.

( t-shirt - The Pains of Being Pure at Heart merch from Laneway Sg / skirt - ONLYi / pink body suspenders & vintage glasses - BAM! / flower crown - lucedale )

Sun.

( outer - ONLYi (scirocco) / shawl & hat - no brand / sunglasses - BAM! / pants - topshop )

Musabill.

( stripes dress - gift from Hanna / capuchon wool shawl - f21 / shoes - topshop / 3 window sunglasses - flea market )

'family of love' - mural.

My work for FATBACK, at FX.

I bartered the mural with this poster of my beloved band ever. :)

Seseorang Disana.

Just got back from Penang last night... I went there to accompany my father to the hospital after a long journey he faced at Jakarta's hospitals. I left my 2 of my precious beloved heart, Imunk and Bill at home. Every time i phoned him, he asked me a lot when will i get back home? But he never said he miss me that much. So i arrived last nite and Imunk pick me up :) i miss him so much..., i directly walk fast (really fast) out from the plane, queue the immigration, and i haven't got any baggage so i walk fast to the exit door. Imunk is standing there smiling and calling my name and hugs...

When arrived to the apartment, all i want to see is my one and only Bill, Musabill. He won't let go of me for almost 45mins :_D... After "Billy Time", Imunk said he got something for me, a song :).

I thought he just want to let me hear 1 of his new song for our band, mostly just instruments. He said, it's a song he make few days ago after i left home, special for me, (too sweet) ooh...

My first expression was 'shy' and happy but sad also..., the 3rd most romantic thing he had ever done for my life :). First thing, he was making the first surprise birthday party i've ever had, second thing, proposed me :). We just get married 7months ago, but we always feel we've been married since 8 years of our relationship.

And i never stay far away without him, so my trip to Penang with my parents and sister is the longest time i've been away without him... I asked him to merge down the song even though it's still rough mixing, i hope you all enjoy :)... This is 'Seseorang Disana' by BruceHunt (ImunkKeeg), edit1.

I love you Imunk, with all my heart.

PEACE.

5pm psychologic thoughts caused by a moment.

5:09

Sometime when people get hurt for a long time, they can do a very sudden thing to anyone, to a person they hate or they love the most. The thing they do is either wonderful or awful. When wonderful times come, these people can be really creative in making others smiling, and these people will never feel tired to say 'i love you' to everything they adore. The problem of these people is happen most at awful moment. The awful moment is mostly can be really means 'awful moment', when that moment arrive without telling and unexpected, such an unpredictable moment that come in sudden. 'Warning' is the most important button for these kind of people. If not..., these people will such an awful reaction. Such as yelling, a crazy crying, usually ends with a long depressing and will automatically shutting down.

5:41

Body, mind or thoughts is for us to control.
I had a bad dream or it's really happened an hour ago?

5:50

Mostly it's hard to forget when both wonderful or awful moment happen to a person they love. But to a person they hate, erase and go is always be the favorite choice.

5:55

This is my 3rd cigarettes.
And a cup of coffee will figure everything out, for me and maybe for these type of people.

6:01

Barbara.

2013.

Happy New Year everyone :)

I planned to have a simple dinner at the apartment, just the 3 of us, Imunk, me and Bill.

But in the morning, suddenly Oliver called and he said he's not celebrating this new year (which is also his birthday) with his family. Since 7 years i never celebrate Oliver birthday, he got this family ritual culture celebrating New Year. So this year, his family went to Bali and yeayyyy for the first time Oliver is having his birthday with his friends :). So we end up at Ed's new place at FX and had a great time together. Ed is doing his experiment making cocktails and all the drinks are special made for one and only Olipierreeee, woohoooo.... So many days we've been thru together Oliver, Edu and Imunk..., I love you guys :')

Happy Birthday Olipierreee and Happy New Year everyoneeee :)

 (The Last Beautiful Night Sky of 2012, Dec 31st.)

(Wearing my old boots, bought this boots 5 years ago at small leather shoe shop in Bandung.)

(Bracelets: The skull is from Anaz :), the studs silver is Topshop, and last 2 were from Bali.)

(Happy New Year 2013!!! Check out Ed's cocktails experiment, the dark blue drink is super sweet and poisonous hehe.)

luv.