Be slow to fall into friendship, but when thou art in, continue firm and constant.
- Socrates -
I'm back :), it's been so long..., more than a month since my last post. Many story to tell..., from new experiences to the same old stories. Life is been so good to me, i love where i live, small apartment with a super cute dog, plus a super hot sexy yummy handsome husband :) And almost every weekend we visit my parent's house and sleep over there for 1 or 2 days. We often meet Imunk's sisters for breakfast or dinner too. Isn't that beautiful? So many thing change this year, and nothing more special than Love & Family. But..., it's not something i want to write right now..., i want to share an experience about 'Friendship', a simple word 'friend' with huge meaning, and keep changing as my age growing.
When i was young (well i'm still young now, let's say when i was younger than today hehe...), i have tons of friend, from everywhere with every type of profession, interests, age, etc. As i grow older, i find out that it isn't easy keep up a friendship. A very close friend of mine when i was in high school became a total stranger today. A lovely friend of mine when she needed me the most to help her fix her problem that time, now she's gone. A very humble friend of mine, the wise one, the one i can trust the most, now i don't like her anymore...
Reasons..., too many reason causes different perception, mind automatically changed. Social media became a place to show off, not to make old relationship become warmer, 'like-ing' and 'love-ing' become very expensive for us but very cheap for 'popular people' only. You know what i mean?
I'm quiet sensitive of every relationship. I mostly can read what a person want from me, especially type of person whom relates everything with 'business' and 'money money money', and mostly these type use word 'friend' to begin a relationship and end up with 'f*ckin money business' or 'f*ckin make friends to get benefits'. I met a couple with this attitude few month ago, asked me and my husband for partnership, and end up bull-shiting about art, charity, whatsoever, and i realized that they're just couple of crap whom treat their life and torture their days with meetings, works, money and lies. No love, no heart, and no wonder all they do is just waste their days by created fake things, and influence the world with fake ideas. I talk about them because last time i met them, they call me and my husband as their friend. In fact, since the first time i met her, i know what she want from me, approaching business and business and business and taking advantage as much as she can. Telling all her sad family stories, her unhappy life with her husband, and after that maybe she thing she's officially my friend. I'm okay with business, that as long as we keep it fair, and all just for the sake of business, call me your partner, that's it, but... don't call me your 'friend'. Mind the way i write and put the words together, it's just me, and my honesty.
There are also another type of person whom claimed me as 'friend'. A type of "i only want to be your friend if you're popular enough", if you're not popular enough i will never follow your social media, or i follow you but i don't 'like' or 'love' your photos because my finger only like to 'like/love' popular people only so it makes me looks cool. Oh my Lord..., i definitely un-share these type of human being.
Seriously, i don't set myself to live like 'what everybody else want me to live'. I live my life freely, i don't take random sponsors, i freedom-ly explore and expose my self from my own heart. I created every single things in my life without gap between imagination and reality. I learn a lot from the streets, i live my house since i was young, i made my own wedding, i married a person i randomly met and i love him so much. I never harsh anybody with my problems, i make money myself and use it to visualized my dreams. I'm not saying i'm perfectly understand with the meaning of life. Life is a lesson, a journey, and i'm so excited to create the journey of life in the future...
This journey also taught me one thing..., it's not easy for me to call a person i just met as a 'friend of mine'. That's how i behave and i have to make a differences between 'friend', 'partner', 'associate' and 'a person i know or i just met'. A word 'friend' has thousands meaning, a 'friend' will never even think about 'taking advantage / benefit / value' for a friendship relationship. A 'friend' will be happy when you're happy, and feel your sadness when you're sad. When you get fight with your 'friend', a 'friend' will only go for a while and come back..., that's what i do to 'friends' of mine...
Above, is an old picture of me and Imunk from 2008. He's my husband, my love, my life, my savior, a father of my future child and for sure... a 'friend of my life'.
( outer - ONLYi // dress - from Mom // hat - Australian leather gifts from Dad // bag - Jogja street market // boots - Pedder Red // lipstick - Make Up Forever // necklace & ring - Jakarta street market )